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Disfigurations [Excerpt]

On day one —
but there is no day
_____one, for what

_____might seem a
_____beginning is only
_____yet one more day

__________day of days
__________years decades
__________centuries of what

__________the poem might wish
_______________to confront —

On day twenty-nine
a poem searching for

_____some starting point
__________in the general ruin —

On day thirty-two
a poem that can
only point

_____to the rubble
_____can only say “look
__________at the rubble” —

On day forty-six a poem
that like any other

_____cannot speak the un-
__________speakable and yet —

On day 134 a poem
the conditions
of which might

_____someday be made
__________irrelevant by history —

On day 106
a poem lodged

_____in the intestines,
__________twisting —

On day 193
a poem excised and
biopsied, then tossed

_____in the medical
__________waste bin —

On day thirty-seven
a poem not yet

_____having arrived
_____at the will
__________have been —

On day 242
a poem that’s given

_____over, but to what which —

On day three
a poem with no

_____words but trying to
__________find them —

On day 540
a poem listing

_____the numbers even as
__________they keep climbing —

On day 278
a poem in which

_____the acts do not
__________condemn themselves —

On day 155
a poem redacted

__________and erased —

On day 201 a poem
against the reification

__________of this
__________when-time —

On day 365 a poem
that cannot mourn,

_____there yet being
__________no after —

On day 88
a poem that drones

_____on or is yet but one more

_____drone, hovering above
__________the carnage —

On day 245
a poem that refuses

_____to become a poem,
__________given that —

On day 399
a poem arriving

_____at the limits of
__________its intelligibility —

On day 103 a poem
that dsfigrs itslf as its

_____being’g wrottnd —

On day 366
a poem in a time

_____of armed bulldozers
_____a time of metadata

_____portfolios, a time of
_____infested liabilities,

_____of artificial counter-
_____intelligence, a time of

__________strafing assets and
__________surgical ankylosis,

__________a time of imprecations
_______________and laments —

On day 212
a poem rendered mute

_____in the face of —

On day 299
a poem in the future

_____anterior, looking back at
_____what will have been

_____from some as yet un-
__________imaginable future —

On day 398
a poem that chokes

_____on its own power-
__________lessness —

On day eighty-four, a poem
in plein air on hillock

_____overlooking the slaughter
_____or the endless fields of

_____produce rotting in ash-
__________occluded sun —

On day 198,
a poem reliant on
its conceptual apparatus

_____to scaffold some vague
__________idea of —

On day 153,
a poem that wishes to say

_____here’s an idea here’s how
_____to here’s what not
_____to and now a word

_____from the streets and now
_____a word from the bar-
_____ricades and now some

_____words from the sponsors
__________in other news —

On day forty-three
a poem that resigns

_____from the executive
__________council —

On day sixty-seven, a poem
that cannot kill because

__________only a poem

On day fifteen, a poem
that cannot destroy because

__________only a poem

On day 277, a poem
that cannot can because

__________only a poem

On day 428, a poem
that will have been,

__________but what
__________for-towards —

On day 389
a poem afraid

_____to list the names

__________lest they
__________never end —

And on day 385
and on day forty-nine

and on day 218 and
on day 593 and on

day 1,534 and on day
fourteen and 104 and

3,528 and on day twelve
and on day 294 and on —

the poem trying,
still, unstilled,

to track the ever-
_____rising numbers —

_____of children under the age of one, since the beginning of the

_____of medics, doctors, nurses, and other hospital workers since the start of

_____of journalists, news photographers, video bloggers, since the start of

_____of displaced persons, since the beginning of

_____of schools and universities, completely or partially destroyed by the

_____of students killed or maimed since the start of

_____of teachers and education staff during the

_____of scholars, academics, university professors, and researchers executed by the

_____of mosques and churches destroyed by the

_____of cemeteries completely or partially destroyed by the

_____of hospitals rendered out of service by the

_____of archeological and heritage sites destroyed by the

_____of kilometers of electrical networks destroyed by the

_____of meters of roads and streets destroyed since the start of

_____of meters of water and sewage networks destroyed by the

_____of tons of explosives dropped by the

__________or the number
__________of images

__________required to make
__________the numbers mean

__________the number
__________of words wasted

__________trying to make
__________the images mean

__________against numb
__________meaning, figures,

__________images, words,
_______________disfigured

 

 

 


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