This Is a Note That Says ‘Do U Like Me Yes or No’

by sung

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I don’t mow my lawn or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I cry super loud or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I play my saxophone early in the morning or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman, full disclosure I’m like hella out of practice

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because my packages keep being delivered to his porch instead of mine or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I’m awkward around his kids or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because he didn’t like the quiche I made for his family or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman, do you think he ate it because I worked really hard on it like I just want everyone to like me lol

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I don’t wear a bra or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I smoke cigarettes in front of his kids or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman, should I still wave to his kids when I’m smoking or no like what’s the proper etiquette with that

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I’m so beautiful perfect sexy smart and sweet or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman, do u think there’s something kinda Freudian happening or am I looking for any way to resolve the conflict between the monstrous and the erotic and so on. Go ahead and call me ugly there’s like nothing I haven’t heard and I’ll still suck your dad’s dick about it

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I have a perfect set of naturals or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I keep slamming my gate by accident or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I keep a knife on me or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I walk around naked with all my windows open or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because my dog has a shrill bark or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because I gab on the phone while sitting outside or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me because the cops came to my house when I tried to kill myself or because he can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman

Do u think my neighbor Michael who can’t tell whether I’m a man or a woman hates me

 


sung is an interdisciplinary artist from Korea. They are the author of What About the Rest of Your Life (Perfect Day Publishing 2017), which was a finalist for the Lambda Literary Award in Transgender Nonfiction. A Korean translation of this work was released this year. Their work has also appeared in HTMLGIANT, Peach Mag, HOMINTERN, Nat. Brut, Kweli Journal, Contrary, The James Franco Review, The Wanderer, and Crab Fat Magazine.